Hey, everyone!

I know it's been forever since I've actually posted any of my own photography work, consistently, at least. I have several of my own shoots that I've done over the past few months, as well as some amazing animal life photos that I've taken, just sitting in untouched folders, because I haven't had enough time to work on them. I've just been so busy, and so very sick. I've been coming down with something for a month now, probably from having a low immune system, but I went to The Birthday Massacre concert last weekend, and I believe I caught a horrible bug there, from the musicians spitting out water all over me and the crowd sweating everywhere, dripping all over each other. I admit, concerts are THE GROSSEST EVENTS EVER, especially in the mosh pit, but I have to get the "full experience" when I attend one, therefore I subject myself to Lord knows how many germs that are going around. So, yeah, I've been sick with the flu all week long. I've had an ongoing fever that really hasn't ceased for one moment in five days (I'm starting to get worried), and pretty much every other flu & cold symptom you could imagine. Keep in mind, I'm someone who eats extremely healthy 90% of the time, so why I've been having a low immune system, I have no idea. I went to Robek's today and drank a huge shot of Wheatgrass, as well as a healthy vitamin-packed smoothie made specifically for colds, so hopefully that helps me a little more than all this crappy medicine has. Boo.

Speaking of The Birthday Massacre concert, it was on May 16th @ The Grog Shop, and it was AMAZING! It was one of the best concerts I've been to in a long time. I've been in love with them for years, and it was the second time I've seen them live. I was able to meet Chibi and M. Falcore after the show, and they're such sweethearts! You can view some photos here: [link] . I'll be uploading some of the live photos I took of the show on dA. They turned out quite well. I was ecstatic to be in the second row (despite the grossness), and I made damn sure to get some great pictures to show you guys! I can't wait to post them.

Thanks to everyone who commented my last journal entry about my dog dying. It meant so much to me, thank you! I'm still a little saddened by it, which is also why I've taken some time off to reflect and get my life back together at home, rather than spending all of my time at the computer, working on photos, when I just don't have the mental and emotional energy. Mr. ~wolfbane652 said I should "get over it already", but I can't. I wish I could, but it's not that simple. No one knows how close I was with that dog for the past eleven years, and I'm pretty much scarred now. That was the first real death I've ever gone through. I'm not letting it hold me back, but I have taken some time to myself, to spend it with my family and to re-evaluate my life, rather than spending tons of time on the computer, which I can do at anytime. Although I'm committed to photography and I love it with all I've got, this is not my full-time job (yet), and I can take time off when I need it. I can't just grieve for one day, let it pass, and then get back into the swing of things like nothing ever happened. Tragedies take me a while to overcome. I guess I'm just too...human?

I'm still very sick (and might have to go to the ER tonight, who knows), and I have both a wedding shower and a wedding to shoot within the next month, as well as some other miscellaneous photography and modeling gigs, so once I find the time, I promise I'll upload photos from recent shoots I've done, past shoots I've done that I've recently edited, cool animal life photos, and some live concert photos of several bands I've seen over the past month. GOSH, I get overwhelmed just thinking about it all I have to do! Ha. Until then, I've uploaded some of my modeling photos for you from my recent shoot with Posh Portraits. Working with Sarah (Posh Portraits) was an awesome experience! She's extremely professional, her studio is beautiful, well-maintained, and is stocked with everything you'd ever need to have a great shoot. We both loved working with each other, so expect more from Posh Portraits and myself in the future! We've even discussed her hiring me as her makeup artist. We shall see! I talked about my shoot with her in my most recent video blog here: [link] .

OHHH, I forgot to tell you guys about the HorrorMerch.com commercial I was in! It's finally edited and on display for anyone who would like to view it! I had SO much fun making it! You can view it here: [link] . Oh yeah, and there was a cute little song written/performed for me here, by one of my favorite MySpace musicians: [link] . It may not seem like much, but it meant a lot to me.



Well, I guess that's all I have to say for now to update you guys on what I've been up to and why I've been absent from the site for a while. Thanks to all of my new watchers!!! And to everyone I'm subscribed too, I'm sorry I haven't been keeping up with the lovely work you've been posting! I'll have to check out your galleries when I find extra time. For now, though, I need some MAJOR rest. I haven't allowed myself to just sleep or lie down for the majority of a day, which is why I haven't been getting better this week. Soup, tea, sleep, repeat!


If you guys want to, let me know if you have any ideas of what you'd like to see from me in the future. With this ongoing fever, I feel like all of the creativity has been temporarily zapped from my body, and I'd love to hear your suggestions!


I adore you all!
Thanks for everything!
Hope to hear from you!


xoxo,
Caitlin.



P.S. YAY for Terminator: Salvation this weekend! If I can make it...ugh. I hope so. Is anyone else going?

P.S.S. YAY FOR KRIS ALLEN WINNING AMERICAN IDOL! WHOO-HOO! ADAM LAMBERT DIDN'T NEED TO WIN IT ANYWAY!